I'm weak.

I was getting ready for work this morning when BAM! Out of nowhere I start coughing. It's like there's a tickle in the back of my throat that I can't quite get to go away. The cough is so bad it's trying to trigger my gag reflex, so while trying to stop coughing I'm also trying not to throw up.

So I'm calling in sick to work today. I'm going to go to the store in a little bit to pick up cough stuff and allergy meds. This is why I don't like this time of year out here. If I sleep with the windows closed, I overheat. If I open them, I get sick.

Blegh.

And such a wimpy reason to call in, too =(

Just in time for V-Day!

Kitteh Wub!



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So, I've been having issues with my computer all day. I've been trying to get that darned hard drive installed. Friday night David gave me a controller so I could do the installing, explaining that the reason why he had an extra one was that it wasn't compatible with his hard drive.

Tonight he was nice enough to come over to check out what was going on, why I was having trouble and all that. We had the following conversation:

D: Oh, Seagate. My hard drive was a 320G Seagate.
Me: Huh. Oh, this one's a 320G.
D: That would be funny if we had the same hard drive.....it is the same hard drive.

Enigma solved, and thus ends my computer woes.

Or does it?

I've been trying to get everything back to the way it was, and it's been giving me difficulties again. For one brief, shining moment I had an old hard drive and a not so old hard drive in as main and secondary. Then I uninstalled the SATA controller, and when I tried to reboot I got a black screen with a blinking cursor. Through trial and error I've discovered that:

old hard drive + Draco = black screen/blinking cursor
old hard drive = boot but no Windows validation and it's very loud
old hard drive + Ryuujin = same, because Ryuujin is no longer being recognized
Ryuujin + Draco = operating system not found

Technology hates me. It really, really hates me.

Chris is, at some point, going to get all of my backed up files off of Draco so that I can attempt to install Windows on it and see if that can be at least some sort of solution. *crosses fingers*

's funny. I wasn't going to post lyrics as the subject line, but when they fit, they fit, and they must be used.

I'm having computer technical difficulties. Thanks to the awesome power of tech friends, I have a SATA controller (thanks David!) and was able to install it (I know you don't read this, but thanks Ben!). This means I should finally be able to install my 300G hard drive and live in the bliss that is not constantly trying to figure out which unwatched anime to delete to make room for the new.

Anyway, I spent a great many hours last night (and technically this morning) moving everything from my secondary drive onto my main drive, because the 300 giger is going to be my secondary drive. When I woke up this morning I went about getting everything installed, and everything seemed to clear okay, so I plugged in the new hard drive.

When the pc boots, I get the message Primary Channel: Drive Not Found

It's taken me hours to finally get just the main drive to boot again. I was seriously freaking out about the possibility of losing the drive because all of my shit was on it. It still is, in fact, but I've reconnected the old secondary and am backing everything up. Once that's finished, I'll see if I can tackle this problem. Maybe by then Chris will be awake and he can help me.

*sigh*

Could someone please explain to me why I have this song stuck in my head?:

"Oh, I'm gettin' married in the mornin'
Ding dong the bells are gonna chime
(I forget a lot of the words here)
But get me to the church on time"

Damn you, My Fair Lady! Damn you all to heck! *shakes fists at the heavens*

*glee*

I had my second interview, which should hopefully be my final interview, for the job that I'm currently already doing. Still no word yet on a salary figure, but my boss has assured me repeatedly that she's pushing for the "big bucks." She said that somewhere within the range I specified should definitely be fair and reasonable, which would be awesome since the low end of my range is a dollar more than I'm making currently.

Also! I've started to learn to do more things. This is both awesome and somewhat sucky. It's awesome because, well, expanding my duties is a plus. It's sucky because learning new things takes me away from the stuff I was already doing. There's a giant stack of papers in my office that aren't technically "mine" (they're enduring programs, I've been told I'll be mainly on live on account of my madd processin' skillz (do people even put a double d on mad anymore?)) to work on, but I've been told that if I finish my shelf I can move on to this other stack. And this stack, it's epic. EPIC. I want to work on it so much my soul cries every time I have to do something else.

And that...that's really weird and sad.

And speaking of weird and sad, I love going to sleep with Byakkoya no Musume (for the uninformed, it's the song from the trailer for Paprika; I'm going to be so disappointed if I watch that movie and scenes with it playing are weird/freaky) playing on repeat through the night because I tend to have the coolest dreams.

Last night was an exception, though. Lately I've been dreaming of The Group (Dennis, Mitch, Blake, Jenny, and all of that crew), and they've been so mundane. Last night I dreamed that we all wanted to lan Diablo II. I mean, at least it could've been a cooler game, like, I dunno, something cooler and newer than Diablo II.

I think I dreamed other things, too, cooler and more fascinating things, but the cats have started waking me up in the middle of the night. I'm getting tired of staggering around my room at oh-dark-thirty in the morning and cleaning something up, or chasing cats around to get them off of my desk. I especially hate it because then I'm really wiped when I wake up, so it takes longer to get out of bed, and that delay has been causing me to be late for work. Which I hate. I hate hate hate being late for work, extra-specially when I actually like the job and enjoy proving to everyone that, yes, I really do have a work ethic.

Anyway, um, I think that's it, really. Went to the store and got some food to last through the weekend, as well as some candles and some laundry stuff since I keep forgetting to get my stuff back from Karen and David's. That reminds me, I need to finish reading 45 Master Characters so I can pass that and some other stuff back to them tomorrow night. Tomorrow night is another meet night, and after much wibbling, I've decided that I want to go. I don't think Chris wants to go to anything meet related anymore, which is kind of sad, but also kind of understandable. I guess.

I dunno, time to check on the casserole. In case anyone's interested:

The Poor Man's Tuna Noodle Casserole
2 boxes mac 'n' cheese (we've been favoring the Safeway brand white cheese)
1 can cream of mushroom soup
1 can tuna

Make the mac 'n' cheese according to the box (milk, butter, all that crap)
Stir in soup and (drained) tuna
Bake in 350° oven for approximately 45 min

I've had other, "normal" tuna noodle casseroles, but this is, by far, my favorite. And it's so simple and cheap. =) It has the bonus of being my favorite food to eat while sick with throat issues, because it's the only food I've ever found that is still tasty when doused with salt, which always makes my throat feel better.

I just heard a senator on tv today say this about Hillary:

"Mother's look at Hillary, they see what a good job she's done with Chelsea, and they know she's going to make a good president."

So, your kid turning out okay qualifies you to be the leader of our country? Because I know some really awesome mothers, and I'd be happy to recommend them for president.

The really sad thing is that, even though the logical part of my brain is going, "wtf?" another part of me realizes that this is exactly how some people look at Hillary. They're right up there with the people who think she'll do a good job because she's married to Bill because, "A good woman will listen to her husband."

Hello, and welcome to the 50s, everone!

And, dammit, I didn't realize today was a voting day, and I'm still not registered in Colorado. >_<

In other news, I'm on a snow delay! And I bet I'm still going to be slightly late for work =P

*PS: NOBODY should be forced to 15mph on the freeway. NOBODY.

It's so weird, this whole "getting older" business. I know that I'm not technically "old" yet, twenty-six isn't very old at all, and with the longevity of people increasing, it's not even as old as it once was.

However, every now and again I come across things that make me feel ancient. It was weird enough when I was in college the second time and I started running into people who had never heard of Ubu (and if anyone asks me who is Ubu, you are going to be kicked off my friendslist!).

Ever since I got all of my bookmarks from my old computer and combined them with my new computer, I've been catching up on things that I've fallen behind on, and catching up on the lives of a couple of my friends.

I didn't make it very far back into Rob's blog before I came across an entry marking the twelve year anniversary of his first date with his wife. Twelve years. It's weird to think about things from twelve years ago. Twelve years ago I was a freshman in high school. Twelve years ago I was working at Joe O'Malia's Food Market, and hating every minute of it. Twelve years ago was just after my mom separated from her second husband. Twelve years ago I was fourteen years old, and the bulk of the bad things that have colored the years between then and now hadn't even really begun to happen yet. Twelve years is just less than half the time that I've been alive.

And, Rob, that should make you feel old. You've known your wife half the time that I've been alive. You old, buddy, you old. ~_^ And at the same time, that's so completely amazing.

I also recently heard from my other best friend from high school, Melissa, and she's pregnant with her second child. I'm almost afraid to find out what other people I went to high school with are up to right now, since it seems like everyone's married by now, which is really weird.

Times like these are really the only times that ever make me think about the fact that I don't have a significant other in my life right now. It's really not a big deal for me, because it's not like I'm putting myself out there and getting rejected at every turn (that's only happened a couple of times in the last year or so). I know that when I want a boyfriend, I'll find one, because despite whatever problems I may have with myself, I still know that I'm a great catch, and someone will be very lucky to have me in their life. I'm made of awesome, after all.

When I'm really ready to find someone, I'll be in a better place emotionally and financially, and that's just going to make me all the more awesome.

Not much has actually been going on the last few days. I've been really, I dunno if the word would be dyslexic when writing, but I keep swapping words in a sentence for words I'm thinking in another sentence, which has been really annoying. Especially when I don't catch it until after I've hit that darn "post to dangermonki" button.

Went to geek night last night, 'twas a blast. Apparently caffeine makes me just as open to chatter as alcohol does, since I've had both this week and been very chatty in both cases. Every time I hang out with these people I feel like I've been accepted just a little more. I'm still not all the way 100% with everyone, but I'm getting there. At some point, I should consider getting instant messenger information from them so more conversing can happen off the facebook.

I had the funniest dream this morning involving the gang. In it my subconscious basically pointed out that I still don't feel like I'm totally in with everyone yet, but that we're getting there. When I woke up and thought about what I'd dreamt, I laughed.

And then I shifted positions and realized someone had peed on my comforter. The cats are really driving me crazy. And I have a feeling it was Coco, but I have no evidence to support this other than the fact that I saw her go on my mom's comforter. Also, Sasha and Kalypso are in heat. Both are annoying, but in entirely different ways. Sasha roams the house, howling for a man, which is very annoying. Kalypso has to be in my lap being petted almost every second that I'm sitting, which is also very annoying. I feel bad that all she wants is love, and I keep shoving her out of my lap, but honestly. I'm getting close to the point where I want to throw the both of them across the room.

That reminds me of a sad story someone told me last night involving a cat and stiletto heels =(

Tomorrow I have the first of my interviews for my job. My boss has told me repeatedly that it's pretty much a done deal, but corporate wants them to go through it as if I were applying for the job from the outside. I already gave them my resume last week. Apparently there's going to be at least two interviews, but possibly a third. It annoys my boss like crazy, because she wants to hire me very badly (she said she told the president that she'd cry if I wasn't hired, which is awesome, and have I mentioned that she said she could rule the world if she'd been able to have me and the guy I'm replacing? =) It's a nice feeling being appreciated for a job well done.), but corporate is corporate. So I interview with her, then possibly another lady, and then definitely with the HR lady. What would be entirely made of awesome would be if I could do all of my interviews in one day. Or find out that I'm hired for sure by Friday because I think that's when my assignment's up.

And in closing, Sara Bareilles is awesome. And VH1's "You Oughta Know" program is also awesome, as it's how I discovered her, A Fine Frenzy, and Colby Caillat, and they are all my current favorite singers. Here, check her out for yourself:



If you go to youtube and look her up you can also see the video for Love Song, and a live version of Fairytale. She's great, and as a bonus, she's freaking adorable. =)

I hate driving in Colorado, but I especially hate it when the weather is "bad." It's in quotes because the drivers here are retarded. Seriously.

Bulletpoints, 'cause I'm at work and can't spend a lot of time on this:

* ZOMG! There's, like, a millimeter of snow on the ground! I have forgotten how to drive!

* If there's about four or five car lengths between the two cars you're trying to get between, DO NOT slow down so you can cut off the person leaving you a semi truck's worth of space. You might not've been able to tell through my be-mittened hand, but that was my middle finger, you ass.

* If we're approaching a split in the freeway where the choices are north and south, and I have my blinker on (and have for several minutes) for God's sake, speed up and get out of my way or slow down and make room. If you force me to go the wrong way when I'm running late for work, I will end you.

* Also, if there's more than ample space for a car three times the size of yours, I'm not going to make more room for you, so speed up and get in there. Don't slowly meander your way to cutting me off. Again. Middle finger. Ass.

Also, Winter, you and your dry ass can be done now. Three bloody noses in two weeks? Actually four if you count the nastiness that came out when I blew my nose this morning? I do not appreciate being woken at 3am, a mere three hours after I went to bed, for such matters. Enough. E. Nough.

Alrighty, friends, if you're on the list, feel free to open up to me. But keep in mind, lj has a 4300 character restriction on replies (found this out the hard way), so try to keep it short, mmkay?



1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?

2) What was your dream growing up?

3) What talent do you wish you had?

4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?

5) Favorite vegetable?

6) What was the last book you read?

7) What zodiac sign are you?

8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.

9) Worst Habit?

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?

11) What is your favorite sport?

12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.

16) Do you have any pets?

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?

18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22) What color eyes do you have?

23) Ever been arrested?

24) Bottle or can soda?

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?

28) Do you believe in ghosts?

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

30) Do you swear a lot?

31) Biggest pet peeve?

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?

34) If you could live anywhere in the world where would you chose?

35) Do you believe in God?

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Why can't my life just be normal? I'm so upset over things I can't control that I think I might be sick. Or cry. Or both.

Just when something amazing happened to me, something that could be devastating could follow right on its heels, and if it does I'm powerless to do anything about it. And I won't find out about it until tomorrow.

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

They're going to hire me ^___________^ *

* That mood icon doesn't even come close to showing what I feel right now

There's a lot going on right now, and I don't want to talk about any of it. I'm so agitated and under so much stress and so freaked out I think I'm going to explode.

So you get memes.
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Today is Chris' birthday. Too bad it's being marred by a lot of really bad shit going on, both work-wise and family related =(. I made a big breakfast for him, because my car cost more than I was expecting yesterday =(

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( Television )

( I'll keep you my dirty little secret )

( Please leave all over coats, cans and top hats with the doorman )

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I think I'm starting to realize I like Panic! at the Disco. I need to get their album so I can know for sure, though. Which reminds me, I need to reinstall my ftp client. Whee!

And I think I need to kill a kitten.

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I forgot how long it takes to install this game. I still have three disks and BC to go. BEs are my favorites. Because I'm a girl. And it's pretty much expected of me. And because I think they look purdy.

This afternoon when I was checking my email Chris came in, distracting me from a message from my mom. Chris asked, "Did you hear the news today? Well, I don't see how you could've missed it."

"What?" asked I.

"You know Heath Ledger? Well, he's dead."

Buh-wha?!

It was weird enough for me when I heard that Jonathan Brandis had died. I've never been all, "Woo, Heath, so hawt!" or anything, but he was around my age, and that's just weird. Young people shouldn't die until they're old.

And that aside, I have an in-box now at work, one for work specifically for me to do because my boss thinks I'm made of awesome. And today she showed me how to do some more work that eliminates work for her, and the way I did it saved a whole lot of trees. It kind of bugs me that we don't recycle, considering the large amount of paper that gets thrown away. Anyway, I have lots of work to do at work, and my boss keeps giving me more because, again, she thinks I'm made of awesome (which, y'know, not to toot my own horn or nuthin', but I am) X3

Toot.

And tonight at some point Chris and I get to go buy a microwave. At last! =D

Gee, I wonder what's been on my mind recently.



I've been playing a bit of Warcraft III recently, and it's been really neat to see the history of the world of WoW.

I HAS INTERNETS!!!!!!111

Yes, I'm finally reconnected to the Collective, and it feels gooooood. First thing I did, I opened about five tabs and watched all the pages load almost instantly. Now to troll the torrent sites and see if there're any animes I need to get/catch up on/become addicted to. I really need to start saving up for an epic hard drive.

Anyway, the install was actually something of a minor ordeal. We were scheduled for the 8-10am slot. Ten rolled around and I hadn't gotten any calls or anything saying the installer was on his way or anything. I called Comcast, talked to a nice lady who transferred me to another nice lady, who put me on hold for a while trying to find out where the tech was. When she came back on the line she said he was running behind but he'd be here in about forty minutes.

The dispatch lady calls back around 11:30, just about the time I'm thinking I should call again to find out where the tech is. She apologizes profusely and puts me on hold to figure out what's going on. I'm on hold for a few minutes when the tech buzzes that he needs to be let in.

He finally left about forty-five minutes ago. I didn't realize we had two cable jacks in our living room, only one of which was actually connected to the outside line. And the one I didn't know we had was the one the guy needed to actually install. I felt bad.

Sometime during the install I got a bloody nose, which was annoying but luckily didn't last long. I'll take a couple bloody noses a year over my old allergy problems, though.

Anyway, that's it. I rescheduled my oil change for next weekend (I didn't want to walk back to the apartment considering it's cold and snowy and I can't remember if there are any crosswalks in my area), so that'll finally get done. And now I'm just going to sit here and bask in the glow of high speed.

^___^